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November 2012

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I should hate her

Her ex-boyfriend fights hard to win her back
the relation ended of my own hand
We’re supposed to be fighting
at least I think so
But envy and want is all I know

I miss her
I should hate her
my own pride stops me from talking to her

But I love her
Like no other
I forget why I’m mad
my minds in the gutter
my heart flutters

I quit on this meaningless existence.
Time to take on somebody else’s problems
read a book play a game
turn my brain to mush to forget the pain

I shout at her in my own head
reduced to the ravings of a lunatic
Reduced to writing bad poetry
Forced rhymes and tea

Nov 3, 20124 notes
#love #hate #bad #poetry #her #lit #sucks

October 2012

3 posts

“Ask me a question, keep me awake :3” —ask.fm/Campos0814
Oct 23, 2012
Kill me...Now

you’ve done half the job

and you’ve done it well

My heart’s broken up

you watched as the peices fell

I won’t lie, it’s not just your fault

I gave my love to a theif

now you won’t give it back

you leave me in my greif

Just when i thought i couldn’t get worse

I find you on Facebook, and it brings back the hurt

back with the same old guy, well what do you know

excuse me, I have to throw up, or cry, or maybe both

Oct 20, 2012
#kill #cry #throw up #poetry #poem #love #hate
“It never was us, them or we
always you and I, him and she”
—
Oct 11, 2012
#confused #lit #love #poem #read #hearbreak

September 2012

2 posts

“The only reason I haven’t said sorry is because I’m scared that you’ll forgive me.” —
Sep 18, 2012
#forgive #sorry #heartbreak #girl
Untitled

Girls falsely advertising themselves on fb

They’re not bad, its just sad

Why would I want you when you spellings horrendous

Your grammar is atrocious, now listen here, focus.

Step one to finding a good man, stick your boobs back in your shirt.

Step two, go to school, learn how to spell, learn your own worth

Step three, the best for last. If the guy you like, likes to sag drop it. That’s not swag.

Go to church honey, you don’t need a man. You need Jesus. He’s the one who will heal us.

Learn this lesson well cuz I won’t say it again. Let the Holy Spirit convict you of your sin.

Cuz if holy fire isn’t your bread and butter. You would never get more than half a man. Your life would be in the gutter.

Sep 10, 2012
#girls #learn #man #spirit #church #spiritual #life #facebook

August 2012

6 posts

What does musingsofthesoul even mean???

musingsofthesoul, or Musings of the soul is based off of this 8 page essay that my english teacher made me write. It was supposed to connect with what we were reading in class. We were basically supposed to delve into ourselves and write about whatever we found. It turned out to be a very… educational experience

Aug 31, 2012
#musings #question #awnser #soul #school #story
The Perfect Girl

Fair Skin hazel eyyes, never cries for a guy

Long hair, doesn’t matter what she wears, I’ll stare

In shape, great taste, I swear this is fate

Perfect smile (at least to me) i’ll always go the extra mile

////////////////////////////////////////////////

I don’t care what you say you’re the perfect girl

Not because you’re beautiful, or smart, although that doesn’t hurt

but because I love you and you love me

with you, I’d start a family

////////////////////////////////////////////

Travel the world, drink coffee and read, sing stupid songs like we’re crazy

I’d write about you, and draw you, trying to catch your perfection and your truth

What makes you perfect is no single attribute, what I see is my vision alone

beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and what i see I want to make known

/////////////////////////////////////////////

I wrote this for you, the perfect girl

i haven’t met you, but when i do

I know you’re somewhere in the world

I just hope I’ll know when i see you

Aug 31, 2012
#love #perfect #wrting #musing #girl #lit #poem #poetry #hopeful #special
Books

Books. paper. leather binding, hardcovers kept together by duct tape and the last threads of the original binding. when i think of these things i find solace, i imagine a comfortable seat, a warm drink, tea or hot chocalate, a rainy day, and a pile of books. A good plot is what i need. Perhaps a girl with me in the seat also reading. we’ll trade books around as we finish them, nestled together comofortable reading. Losing ourselves in other people’s problems, in the thoughts of Fictional characters.

Aug 2, 201252 notes
#musing #thoughts #books #reading
“Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.” —A Girl You Should Date via @brainpicker (via bookshelfporn)
Aug 2, 20123,597 notes
“The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.” —Ralph Waldo Emerson (via commonplacerfollowshisbrush)
Aug 2, 2012718 notes
Cloud City and other thoughts

Like an empty white canvas

A sheet of cotton fleece stretches over the horizon

Insubstantial, intangible, a tundra above the earth

Rolling hills reflecting the dying rays of sunlight

Where peace is a concept more easily imagined

It’s much easier to pretend the sky’s the limit

When you’re flying through it

Easy to lose myself in the simplicity of my unrealistic perception of what life should be

The fluffy expanse of the uninhabited city

So large it seems that distance is inconsequential

There will still be dips and valleys, mountains and piles of white

In front, behind, to the left, right, and below

It feels almost unnatural to see this

A view that man was not meant to see

Otherwise we would have been born with wings

But like everything else, humanity has perverted the laws of nature

Disturbing it, we are aliens on this planet we call home

Humanity doesn’t seem to fit on the food chain

Instead we bend it to our will

We act as if we are Gods, when in fact we just have opposable thumbs

We act opposing the original plan

Destroying, instead of protecting this earth, our charge

Exploiting its resources for Greed

Instead of humbly the fruit it would readily give

Appearances are everything

Pull away cloud city and underneath

You’ll find lights and beacons

Acting as a reminder of reality

Aug 2, 2012
#Cloud #city #free style #lit #original #poem #ramble #writing #Musing

July 2012

1 post

“Guys are simple because they choose not to be confused
Girls choose to be confused
Girls confuse guys becasue they are confused themselves”
—
Jul 16, 2012

June 2012

2 posts

Parents suck... Pt.2

6-12-12
“scratch that out”
 after spending 3 minutes watching an 8 minute assassins creed gameplay video, benji yells “mami” before i tell him i don’t have homework. he proceeds to go upstairs, but Nelly sticks her head in my business by telling papi that i’m on facebook, and playing games which is a complete lie mind you, how could she tell from the kitchen what i’m doing down the hall when there is a wall blocking her view. Father proceeds to come down to the computer, and look at the computer. “scratch that out” he says. confused I minimize the page. “Like that?” I ask. he slaps me hard across the back of the head. you guys think your mother and I are stupid, what do i look like a clown? do i have a lolipop stuck to my forehead. idiot, take that off and study.

 Yes, because when people want you to take off a page they say scratch that out. Yes i think ithink you’re an idiot, because i can’t take 8 minutes of study time to watch a video when i’ve been spending every spare minute studying. yes you’re an idiot, because you obviously assume the worst of me, and that i think the worst of you. you go scratch yourself out of my life, PLEASE.

Jun 12, 2012
#Parents #Suck #True story #Rage
Parents Suck

6-12-12
“And you want you’re  phone back?”
 I’m passing lab which is the reason why i got my phone taken away, along with the fact that my mom is a control freak and can’t stand it when i have things that she can’t control including a phone, bluetooth headphones, any game, anything at all. i tell her that i’ve worked hard, making up several labs to pass. Later she yells at me. “Go get your shoes” i reply ” i haven’t been upstairs yet, don’t worry i’ll take it up when i go upstairs.
“no” she screams” you take it up NOW” i comply, seeing she’s in a bad mood, probably PMSing. i pick up my shoes and am walking to the staircase when she cries “and dry this up”. i don’t turn back, i mean, i’ve just registered she’s talking and so what’s the use of looking at her say the word “up”? i continue walking and she comes to yell at me. ” You look at me when i talk! you’re so disrespectful! i think we’ve had this conversation before! you LOOK at me when i’m speaking to you, not just keep walking”. “all you said was “dry this up”. and i continue up to my room to throw my shoes into my closet. At this point i don’t even want my phone, she’ll find some bs excuse to take it back anyways, she always does.

Jun 12, 2012
#Parents #suck #True story #Rage

April 2012

7 posts

Apr 20, 201243,439 notes
what if

what if I told you
this song wasn’t for you,
it came to me in bed
but the words are so true

I’m tired of listening
your words are full of lies
the stars have eyes glistening
they watch you and ask why

what if I told you
this song wasn’t for you
I’m tired of your lies,
all the tearful goodbyes

can’t stand it much longer
I lay here and ponder
when will I finally let go
I’m tired of running circles like some kind of show

what if I told you
I no longer love you
this truth is self evident
in the way I take the hint

I get it you don’t want me
I understand comprendi
in any language the message is clear
I won’t miss you calling me dea

this song wasn’t for you
it was more for me
life is about moving on
so forget it, I’m done with this tragedy

Apr 19, 20121 note
#poetry #song #storyboard #for you #break up #ex
Trash and Vaudeville: To the person who asked me: "I'm tired of being a no-one, how do I get my work known?"  → jscottgrand.tumblr.com

jscottgrand:

Sorry for the delay in responding but I wanted to make sure I had time to write a thoughtful reply. I’m making this a post, rather than a direct response to you because I get this question a lot and am hoping this exchange will help other people who may be feeling the same way.

First off, it…

Apr 19, 201223 notes
Fields of Grey Prologue

     The steel train rumbles into the station coming to a slow stop. It’s been a long day, and all i want is to get home and jump in my couch. The train door creaks open, and I step out of the post-winter chill. The winter was fine, but i can’t wait for the summer. thoughts of green grass and sunshine fill my head as the train rolls slowly into motion.      

     It’s a long way home. about an hour on the train, and then another thirty minutes of walking. But, eventually after a while I can see my home over the green canopy of trees surrounding it. Ut’s hard to find if you don’t know what you’re looking for, and harder to find if you don’t know it’s there. I walk up to the front door and place my hand on the sensor. It’s mostly there to just unlock the door, since finding my house is next to impossible seeing as it’s hidden in plain sight, about an hour from the closest town in a forest. Even if my house was found nobody would try to rob, or even visit me.

     I guess i should explain why i live in the middle of nowhere and why nobody would want to rob me. My parents are inventors. What have they invented? Well you know, nothing special just about everything that has anything to do with modern technology. Yeah, I know right. Hover Cars, the cure for cancer, an alternative fuel source, hell even a way to get the last bit of peanut butter out of the container. Those, are my parents. Now imagine them living in an apartment building, or even in a mansion in a city. Even with security it would be a living hell. So they built a house in a forest, covered with with a few private inventions and called it home.

     Although, living a private life does help when the world doesn’t know you exist. Yep, I’m the family secret.

     I walk into my very spacious foyer, and press a keypad that opens an elevator. i step in and wait about two seconds before the door opens and I’m in my room. the fourth floor, the top of the house, and my paradise. there’s the main area which is shaped like a reverse L. the bottom part has my bed, which is a bunk bed which I personally removed the bottom on and stuck a couch on. The TV is on the opposite wall and the adjacent wall is full of books. Around the corner is the small kitchen, and on the same floor I also have a laundry room ( because contrary to popular belief not all rich people have maids, and not all teenagers are slobs) a small music room and a home gym.

       I drop my bag and toss myself into my couch grabbing the universal remote and game station remote on the way. On the universal remote I order some popcorn, and a panel on the wall next to me opens up and out slides a tub of salty buttery popcorn, and my usual glass bottle of orange soda pop. I grab it and jump into my game.This is the good life. My music is playing, I have food, and I have games.

If only I knew how this would all change in the blink of an eye.

Apr 19, 2012
#Lit #story #book #original #prose
Apr 14, 201228,475 notes
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